So when I saw my podiatrist a few days ago, he asked me if I was still wrapping my toes, and I said, "yes". He told me to stop! But the thing is that I still wrap them because when I don't, I have pain in the forth toe of both feet and the bone gets very swollen and tender and it hurts like all hell! Anyway, he gave me these toe compressors to try instead. They work pretty well as far as keeping the forth toes compressed enough in order to prevent swelling in the first place. Well, the Dr. also gave me 2 extra compressors. So I decided to see what would happen if I put them over both 2nd toes in regards to bringing the swelling in the bone down. According to my Dr.'s claims, he said that the bone swelling is why I still "appear" to have hammer toe. It's only been a couple of days, but already I've seen some positive results! The top of the toe, where the bump is, is a lot flatter! It's not perfect yet, but I'm so glad that I'm starting to see some improvement, though it is veeeeeeeery slow!P.S.: I'm still doing my scar treatments 3x's a day, and they are getting flatter and lighter with the passing weeks.
Hi Shereese
ReplyDeleteI just got your message. I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been going through. I've seen your pictures and I think you look great but I understand that it's not about what I think, it's about how you feel. Why do you hate your result? My swelling was constant and I wrapped for months and slept with my feet elevated for months. My feet aren't perfect, my right foot definitely looks different than my left and I don't love it at all, but I'm no longer in pain. I'd say give it time or perhaps see another doctor for a different opinion.
Separately, I've struggled with certain disorders that I haven't shared on my blog, but I'll tell you that the surgery did make those things that I struggle with become magnified. Not having a way to get my energy out or being home bound would challenge anybody. So being someone who already struggled with certain things, it made it worse. My blog helped me at times and other times I would just lose it and cry (even in public!). Feeling helpless, such as when I was crossing the street and almost hit by a car because I couldn't run (and the driver certainly wasn't slowing down for me), those things contributed to feeling terrible. I know I don't know you, but I wish I could have lifted you up during those times because I know how low I felt. I know things get better because everytime in life where I have felt so down that being happy seems so far, it did get better. And yes, god is good :) I think every single thing in life is a lesson and maybe even hating parts of ourselves (our feet included!) is just another lesson in finally accepting ourselves for what we are. But if you're in pain, you shouldn't have to live that way. I hope you do see another doctor to see what can be done so that you can live the full happy life you deserve!
any updates? I keep checking for new posts.
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